all growed up

As I sit here and think I realize how exhausted I am. With work, and 5 children I realize that I am now an adult. Kind of odd I know, I mean I have been a mother for nearly 10 years now, but the truth is that I didn't want to face the facts. Life is moving forward and I am doing what I have to do to take care my family and myself. I wonder on rare occasions what life would have been like if I would have waited to have children at an older age. I wonder if life would have been easier. If I would have been less stressed. If I would have been a better mother. Life is stressful, and I always feel like I don't have the strength to move on, but some how I manage to get up and do what I have to do.